What he would’ve told me 365 days ago…

It’s going to be okay, Mama. We got this. With you by my side, I’ll get through this.

If my sweet boy, Levi, could’ve understood what a year this would’ve been 365 days ago, I have no doubt in my mind he would have uttered those words when he saw the tears streaming down my face that day. And guess what, he would’ve been right.

Levi was diagnosed on March 21st, 2019. In the course of 1 year, I handed my boy over 4 times to the most incredible doctors and nurses. FOUR too many. He had 2 surgeries and 2 cast changes with a total of 4 casts (3 spica casts & 1 petrie cast) for 160 days.

I’ve hit backspace many times on this blog, because I don’t know if it’s for me or for another mom beginning this journey. I’m pretty sure it’s for the latter. And if it touches ONE person…then it did it’s job.

To the mom who just received the diagnosis for your child….

It’s going to be okay.

You’re going to go through the toughest moments ever sine becoming a mom.

You’re going to ask yourself over and over again, what you did wrong.

You’re going to welcome Anger, Fear & Sadness into your life.

You’re going to wish it could be you in the Operating Room instead.

You’re going to want to take away loneliness and become their best friend.

You’re going to lose sleep reading everything you possibly can on this.

You’re going to wonder if you are truly making the right decision.

You’re going to hope he’ll have a normal life or wonder if he’ll have restrictions.

You’re going to want to wake up from the ‘nightmare’ that won’t end.

You’re going to love life you’ve never loved before.

Because of you…he’ll keep smiling. He’ll run again. He’ll learn through this challenge. He’ll sleep in comfort knowing you’re there. He’ll be without pain. Because of you, he’ll be HIS normal. He’ll not feel alone. He’ll feel loved and life will continue just as it did before ‘that day’.

You see, what you do for your child after viewing those x-rays is not something you ever imagined. In the end, you made the decision to protect and that’s what you’re doing.

It will be okay. I promise. I can’t guarantee your journey is going to be what you hoped, and I wish I could say that ours is over…but it’s not. But I can tell you that by the Grace of God, I learned how strong a 2 year old can be and I was given an amazing supportive community who prayed. Faith and prayer got us through this year and we’re smiling (and running) on the other side.

From, A mama who knows

So here we are, one year after Levi’s bilateral hip dysplasia diagnosis. We’ve had answered prayers and some unanswered. But in the midst of it all God has been with us every step of the way. He tells us to “ask and it will be given…” (Matthew 7:7). I asked for God’s will to have the upper hand in Levi’s life because he sees his needs more than I ever can. We celebrate because of where we’ve come from and have our heads held high to where we are going.

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