After three months in his cast followed by four months in a brace during naps and bedtime we were at a crossroad to determine our next steps. Was it to keep bracing? Or did we receive what we had been praying for?
Our eyes were on the 4 month mark and Levi got his x-rays done last week. After glancing at the x-rays, I walked out with hope as I saw the bone structure of my son’s hips had changed, however, after a 40 minute call, I later learned that any change there was came from a surgeon and not my son’s development.
As I’m sitting here watching the sunrise on Lake George, New York, I’m beginning to realize that hearing that news took an emotional toll on my heart.
We go through life wanting so much for our children, wanting to give them EVERYTHING. But it’s hard to be at a place where you physically can’t give them the one thing that they need.
We desperately and prayerfully NEED my son’s bone to ossify in his hips. Fact is my prayers are not being answered. But I think his answer is “not right now.” Off of recommendation, we are going to be searching why his growth is delayed in that category, would this surface something we need to know? I don’t know, but all we can do is turn our attention elsewhere.
Levi’s case is far from ‘textbook’. His body is writing its own chapter in the book of Hip Dysplasia. As we look over our shoulder and glance back to the young married couple with no kids who wanted ‘out’ of the military…God kept us in. We see why now, our insurance is incredible and we are beyond thankful we only need to focus on the emotional and physical side of this as he already handled the financial side.
If you’re on the fence of faith, there is no “lack of God” in situations. He’s there in ALL things and my belief is that the prayer that is unanswered, may lead us to a destination that wasn’t on our radar.
I have felt a bit overwhelmed and weak recently, I think that shows where my time has been spent more than where my time should be spent.
Isaiah 40:31, “But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.”
Lord, my prayer, your will. Cast my eyes on the things I CAN change rather than the things I want to change. You give me hope in tomorrow. Amen.